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[Dec. 12th, 2010|01:53 am] |
I am nice most of the time but I can get vicious.
and yes, that was a threat. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2010|03:41 am] |
You are not pretentious.
I like you.
I like you, a lot.
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[Jul. 2nd, 2010|03:36 am] |
My mom is going to scream when my UPS shipment of Marc Jacobs tote from shopbop.com arrives;
And when my Steve Madden pixie dust bag is mailed to my door;
And when I come back from picking up my oxford wedge from Forever21;
And when I get my Marc Jacobs pebble wallet and latin rings.
I.AM.SO.DEAD.
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[Jun. 9th, 2010|02:22 am] |
Armani
Who art in Holts
Hallowed by thy shoes
Thy Prada come
Thy shopping done
On Bloor street
As it is in Paris
Give us this day, our Visa Gold
And forgive us our balance
As we forgive those who charge us interest
Lead us not into Wal Mart
And deliver us from Sears
For thine is the Louis,
The Gaultier, and the Versace,
For Dolce and Gabbana
AMEX
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[Jun. 2nd, 2010|04:06 pm] |
Its getting really exhausting to post entries on both sides. Exhausion. Its really funny how i have nothing to do and yet, I feel tired all the time. I usually spend my day these days waking up at 11am and sleeping at 6am. Some days I have to drag myself to some event or meet friends or just to go to the supermarket in search of more junk to pollute my body. Now my obsession du jour is chocolate ice-cream root beer floats. Unhealthy but oh so good. Yes I know, it amplifies my exhaustion. STOP JUDGING ME YOU FUCKING HEALTH NUTS. I only have 46 days left to be a couch potato.
The department head called out my name.
As he handed my cert to me, he said, "Fitri, BAGC right?"
It took me a few seconds to comprehend what he just said.
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[May. 28th, 2010|12:54 am] |
I went to the degree graduation show feeling a bit apprehensive. I mean, I woke up to a miss call from school saying that they are inviting me to the grad show that I have already planned on going and a text saying that i need to pay the school library the overdue fees I owed them for 2 years or I won't get my transcript.
I saw these BA works on blocks of white boxes. A nondescript and minimalist setting which I suppose is their intention. Its not as flamboyant as ours, with our day-glo green constellation and dark panels. Their work... is brilliantly smart. I walked around thinking, "oh shit, this is the kind of standard I have to adhere to." I am thankful I got in though since they only took in 28 students for the current batch. I'll have to work twice as much and figure out how am I going to write a 9000 word dissertation. Man, that's hard. Here's to more late nights, sweat and tears.
C'est la vie. |
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[May. 25th, 2010|05:13 pm] |
"I tried taking pictures, but they were so mediocre. I guess every girl goes through a photography phase. You know, horses... taking pictures of your feet."
- Charlotte, Lost in Translation |
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[May. 4th, 2010|11:16 pm] |
I don't know what to do with this new so called freedom.
Its strange to have nothing designy to do.
I had a dream that I screwed up my BA interview.
oh god help me. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2010|12:52 pm] |
When i go through random couple pictures and blog entries declaring/showing their love, I could not help but wonder how can one person love another so much without being selfish. I admit even when i am in a relationship, I am pretty much selfish and I am my own person. To me, when two people are in a relationship, they are not an "us" but simply two people who enjoys each others companion. I have people asking me how i managed to sustain my relationship. At times i do not know the answer but I think I've always treated him like my best friend more than anything else. We have our fair share of fights... maybe more but at the end of the day, I know that if anything happens I am able to stand on my own two feet and not cry.
I am not one to be sad and go on days being in the dumps when breakups happen. I am stubborn and sometimes thinks that being in a relationship will pull me down. I cannot stand public declaration of love and for five years, he has never met my parents officially because I will only do that when I am absolutely sure I am going to marry that guy. I can be ruthless and make guys cry without feeling any emotions at all. I only want to get married after thirty and with all these pre-requisites, I wonder if I am going to get married at all. Though, I am pretty easy love simply because I don't need much attention,
I have never comprehended how to show love. How to be more gentle and sound caring like what a girlfriend is supposed to do. I am pretty much like a guy in that sense, I can love so hard but not show it and I can push someone away without feeling pain. He said it all the time, "You are so much like a guy emotionally. Its hard to figure you out when you don't tell me things."
I am lacking so much in the emotional aspect of the relationship and I still can't promise you the future but for now, at this very moment, I love you.
Happy 5th anniversary. |
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[Jan. 15th, 2010|02:00 am] |
The inner workings of my mind.
Good god, my handwriting is atrocious.
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